Last month in Vadim, WTF! part 1 I promised weekly public check-ins. I did not do that.
Owning the broken promise
I wanted to write another itemized list of things that I did not accomplish. Again, did not do that, but rather owned it and learned from it.
When I dump feelings onto paper, logic cuts through the noise and the fear looks ridiculous. It’s true what they say: “you are not your thoughts.” The same trick got me through a race when I was convinced I would DNF. Typing my ridiculous thoughts during physical pain made them look weak enough to realize it wasn’t happening—so I kept running. Writing forces the lie to self-destruct.
What actually moved
The last few weeks weren’t a breakthrough, but I’m moving more toward action with urgency. Every time my brain flipped to commercials, I noticed it. Sometimes I even yanked it back. That awareness alone reminded me that discipline is trained, not willed—and that you constantly need to recalibrate.
Habits are not created equal. The ones that feel heavy throw off compound interest when you stick with them. Ship the hard habit and the lighter ones follow. That’s something that I needed to remind myself.
Here’s what actually happened this week: I did the runs I said I would do. I published this post. I finished the algorithm for the new app I’m developing (more testing needed, but the code is done). I did more AI and math than the previous week. Nothing huge—but we’re building the foundation and breaking the resistance.
The takeaway
Real thinking happens when you write. Not for anyone else, but for you. The act of writing forces clarity. Your excuses sound reasonable inside your head. On paper, they look pathetic.
✌️ V.K.